Silly kitty . . .

I still feel bad laughing at this, but it's funny as hell! Jr is still wearing a cone due to his surgery and can't actually clean himself right now, but that isn't stopping him from trying!

Took him to his follow up appointment yesterday. They said his arm still needs to drain so I have to bring him back again on Saturday to hopefully get the wick taken out. He is definitely back to his old self though. Meowing and howling and being annoying again : ) oh well, atleast a crisis like this makes you appreciate it haha! They did let us put the fabric cone on him, which is way more comfortable for him. No more walking into doors for him lol.

Busy, busy, busy

I guess it's been awhile, but I have been running around with my head cut off since my last post! Lots of studying for my upcoming mid-term, which I actually just realized is on Wednesday instead of Monday as I previously thought. Sweet, two extra days to study!

The picture above is of my poor baby Jr, who had to go to the vet and have a little minor surgery done on his arm. It turned out that there was a bite from the fight we didn't find, and it swelled up into an absess. It was considered a minor surgery because they had to put him under to drain it. There goes my tax refund : ( I had to work, but luckily Brian was able to pick him up for me.

Poor little guy. I am taking him back tomorrow to get the wick (the string going through his arm which keeps it draining) taken out. Hopefully everything went well. He is already starting to walk on it again. I guess we can't call him Tripod anymore lol. I have started calling him Jr Bigglesworth after the cat from Austin Powers, due to the shaved arm. It's weird!

My weekend was interesting. I took care of my nephew Connor while my sister and her hubby went to Cache Creek for some gambling. So it turns out, Connor has learned how to throw class A fits! If he doesn't get something he wants, he walks around the kitchen thrashing at the cupboards. Super fun! After I got him to bed, I was too tired to study. Then my drunk friends decided to call me and rub it in that they were out having a good time and I wasn't. It's really hard to get drunk people to realize that you can't come meet up with them because you are babysitting, even if he is asleep. . . yes Sammy I mean you!

As for the smoking, I am doing pretty well. Not really eating a lot, and through all this stress I've been dealing with, I really haven't been wanting one. If anything, I have been noticing how smoking would have made the last week more difficult. Like I said before, I am not focusing on how many days it's been. I know it's been over a week, but I am really just trying to adjust to a different way of life. I hope this weekend goes well though. Going out for my friend Andy's bday, and as of now I think I am practically the only one of my friends who doesn't smoke. Not worried though, I am trying to look forward to it as another situation to get used to.

Alright, back to studying.

Kells

The last couple of days . . .

Let's see . . . usually when I try to quit smoking it's all about keeping busy and trying not to think about it. This time I am trying not to do that. I am trying to just sit and breathe my way through the cravings. Four days in . . . I'm also trying not to think about how many days it's been. It's hard cause people keep asking me. I am not so much thinking about how long it's been, I'm looking forward to just being over it. Granted, I am just trying to make it through each day, but I think that quitting successfully has a lot more to do with not identifying with smoking anymore. Four days, big f'ing deal. That's not really the point.


This is also the first time I have tried to quit in years when I know I am doing it for myself. I have tried to quit for others before (i.e. boyfriends), and that was such a waste of time! If you do it for someone else, the second they piss you off or let you down, you just use that as an excuse for picking it up again (to hurt them of course haha but the joke is really on you). If they don't piss you off, you will find something to get pissed off about so you have an excuse to smoke!

Let's see, what else . . . So JR has officially stopped using his leg. He has taught himself how to walk around and even jump up on things sans his injured leg. I now refer to him as the Alice in Chains Cat. I'm actually kind of impressed. Brian says he probably just pulled a muscle during the fight he got into, and I know there is nothing to worry about as long as he has his appetite. He has also stopped hiding from us and become more social again so I know he's getting better. I feel bad laughing at him hobbling all over the house, but I'm torn. Sometimes I'm all "oh my god, my poor baby!" but then other times I kinda think he's just being dramatic. In fact, right now, he is sprawled on my bed with his paw draped over his forehead. Oh woe is me! I still don't get why he and my mom don't get along lol.

Should have a busy weekend, hanging out with Sammy who's in town from Lala land, studying, and babysitting my neffie Conner. Also, my sweater is almost done! For those who don't know, my sister finally got me to start knitting, and I made all the pieces for a really cute cardigan and finally started sewing them all together today! I will hopefully be done with it by next weekend! I will post some pics, so excited! I think I am going to make Aiden, my nephew/godson, a sweater for his 4th bday!

oh ya, speaking of bdays, happy bday shout-outs to Melanie, Tommy, and little Sebastian (not my other cat, Beau and Brandy's little one). Feb. 19th is a busy bday- day!! Well, it was the 19th when I started writing this . . .

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This blogging thing is pretty cool. I think I am gonna download some Doogie Howser music to listen to while I do it from now on. . .

Quitting so far . . .

Ok, so day one wasn't so bad. I had the day off and didn't go to class. Pretty much stayed in bed most of the day watching My Name is Earl with JR, who is nursing a bum arm. I pretty much just felt like I was PMSing all day, really irritable and cranky. I was hungry, but didn't know what for. I finally decided that a whopper with cheese was what I needed to finally make myself get out of bed. It was so worth it! It lifted my spirits enough to get some studying done!

Day two:

The morning cravings weren't so bad cause I slept with my patch on. It gives you some pretty crazy dreams lol. Getting in the car is kinda sad now. I keep thinking I have something to look forward to, and then I remember and my heart just drops. I was dreading going back to work today, cause that's where I experience the most stress. It was super boring!!! Especially now that I don't have smoke breaks to look forward to!

The best part of my day was the green bean fries Damien (soux chef) made me!!! We only do them at lunch, but I went up to him and said, "I know you don't make them at night, but I just quit smoking and I am actually craving green bean fries more than a cigarette right now! Please please please!!" And he made them for me! Damien rocks!!! I don't know if you guys have ever had tempura fried green beans, but OMG so damn good!

So I guess today I have learned that I just need to think of something I want more than a cigarette and then go get it. God, I hope I don't get fat!!! I hope I crave carrot sticks tomorrow, but that probably won't happen. . .

Peace out
KJ

Hello all!

So I've always thought about creating a blog. I expect that most people who read this will be people I already know. However, just in case you don't know me and have just stumbled across my ramblings, I'll give you a little background on me:

My name is Kelly Jeanne McBride. Jeanne is my middle name and I don't usually use it all that often, but I do like the ring to it. I just turned 28, and live in Los Altos with my cat JR and my two roommates Cat and Brian along with their cat Ashley. I have lived here for a few months, and was lucky enough to find such a cool room for rent where I could bring JR. My ex and I recently broke up a few months ago. I guess it's not that recent, but considering we were together for almost 4 years I think it's still recent in the realm of everything. It's the most recent crisis I can think of anyway. He is awesome by the way and we are still friends : )

I have lived in the south Bay Area my whole life. Left high school early to finish up at Community College. Started San Jose State University about four long years ago, and will finish my last semester in the fall! I will be getting a BA in psychology, and think I have finally decided to get my master's in Clinical Psych and then go for an MFT license (Marriage and Family Therapy). To put myself through school, I bartend at a restaurant in Palo Alto across the street from the Stanford Hospital. Looking forward to using my BA to find a non food-related job very soon! Offices and 401-K's sound so good to me!!!

Let's see, what do I hope to do with this blog? The number one reason I wanted to start this is because I just quit smoking yesterday and thought this would be a fun way to vent all my frustrations out! I also feel like this is a big year for me. Nothing huge, just kind of laying out the groundwork for the rest of my life. Being in a relationship that was comfortable but not exactly what I was looking for made me wake up and realize how much I need to change and grab control of things. I think I will always look back on 2009 as the year when things turned around and really got started. So regardless of whether or not people actually read this thing, I will be able to look back at it and be able to see where things went wrong, or hopefully right!

I haven't thought of a cute signing out catch phrase yet, but this is where I will put it when I do!

KJ