The last couple of days . . .

Let's see . . . usually when I try to quit smoking it's all about keeping busy and trying not to think about it. This time I am trying not to do that. I am trying to just sit and breathe my way through the cravings. Four days in . . . I'm also trying not to think about how many days it's been. It's hard cause people keep asking me. I am not so much thinking about how long it's been, I'm looking forward to just being over it. Granted, I am just trying to make it through each day, but I think that quitting successfully has a lot more to do with not identifying with smoking anymore. Four days, big f'ing deal. That's not really the point.


This is also the first time I have tried to quit in years when I know I am doing it for myself. I have tried to quit for others before (i.e. boyfriends), and that was such a waste of time! If you do it for someone else, the second they piss you off or let you down, you just use that as an excuse for picking it up again (to hurt them of course haha but the joke is really on you). If they don't piss you off, you will find something to get pissed off about so you have an excuse to smoke!

Let's see, what else . . . So JR has officially stopped using his leg. He has taught himself how to walk around and even jump up on things sans his injured leg. I now refer to him as the Alice in Chains Cat. I'm actually kind of impressed. Brian says he probably just pulled a muscle during the fight he got into, and I know there is nothing to worry about as long as he has his appetite. He has also stopped hiding from us and become more social again so I know he's getting better. I feel bad laughing at him hobbling all over the house, but I'm torn. Sometimes I'm all "oh my god, my poor baby!" but then other times I kinda think he's just being dramatic. In fact, right now, he is sprawled on my bed with his paw draped over his forehead. Oh woe is me! I still don't get why he and my mom don't get along lol.

Should have a busy weekend, hanging out with Sammy who's in town from Lala land, studying, and babysitting my neffie Conner. Also, my sweater is almost done! For those who don't know, my sister finally got me to start knitting, and I made all the pieces for a really cute cardigan and finally started sewing them all together today! I will hopefully be done with it by next weekend! I will post some pics, so excited! I think I am going to make Aiden, my nephew/godson, a sweater for his 4th bday!

oh ya, speaking of bdays, happy bday shout-outs to Melanie, Tommy, and little Sebastian (not my other cat, Beau and Brandy's little one). Feb. 19th is a busy bday- day!! Well, it was the 19th when I started writing this . . .